Oh wow. Its been a year since I checked this. Guess that means I finally have a life? Eh, maybe not. I kinda wish I had something exciting to report, but sadly its been so long that everything exciting that has happened now seems like old news. I'm taking all my tests next week, and its hell. But atleast once they're over, over half my classes will be done! So yay freedom! Otherwise, this month has been overshadowed by a tragedy. I remain eternally confused about the affairs of my heart, mine as well as other's (but that's not really new). I'm atlast at peace with the crowd around me, and I couldn't love them more. Although I do still miss some of the people I used to hang out with in the past. But lives change, people grow appart, don't meet and don't see eachother. Friendships grow distant and then disapper. Even though I believe its always possible to rekinkle old flames (just look at me and Eric*), its foolish to believe you go through highschool unchanged. (And if you have, haven't you really failed? After the whole purpose behind school is not only to teach you that E=mc^2, but to let you grow as a person.) And I think I have changed mostly for the better. Mostly. There are some things I wish I could have gone back and changed, but its useless to sulk over the past. I do believe that I am just a little more mature. Yet, in alot of ways I still dont want to release my vice-like grip on childhood. Afterall, once u let it go, its gonne forever. And what do you have to look forward to then? Just imminent death looming over you as a shadow. So as times change, I still remain faithfully yours, the reminder of your distant past.